So here I will wait while you seek mountains and pleasure
By this cold cold open window
forever your sorrowful snowy boy
The thousands of needles screeching at my skin could never being to reach the depth of hurt that fell in your wake.
It was New Years the last time our lips met. Time stopped. A new year began, but it left me behind,
I guess I’ll just lie in my bed, smoke cigarettes and listen to Icelandic music.
I am tired without you.
I remember my phone by the side of the pool. Night swimming like I had been doing every night in Martha’s Vineyard. I told you to listen to the song and picture yourself floating on a black endless sea, drifting into the night peacefully. I thought you would think I was crazy, and I probably am. You’re gone now and all I would like is to let myself sink with the memories of you.
I miss you already.
"Maybe it’s the weather, or something like that. Well…. mama, you been on my mind."
It’s really been a long while since a girl was able to capture my heart without me putting on guard and making sure that didn’t happen. She did, though, and it’s gone and I’ll miss her. However short lived it was, she should know that she’s beautiful and not deserving of the shit she has to deal with. She’ll never know it, but I was definitely falling for her. More beautiful than she will ever really know.